I am tired of waking up every morning with knots in my stomach. I am tired of the constant arguing and debating that goes on every time I open my mouth. I am tired of being touched all the time. I am tired of having constant demands on me. I don’t know why God gave me four children when He knew that emotionally I couldn’t handle it. I am tired of always feeling the tears behind my eyes, begging to fall. I am tired of being tired. I am tired of feeling scared and alone. I am tired of feeling overwhelmed all the time. I am tired of everything I try to do getting screwed up. (like trying to upload pictures on this stupid site, trying to chunk it all and upload a whole new theme to start over and not havinga clue how to) I am tired of ALWAYS trying to hold it together and NOBODY understanding what that feels like. I am tired of being asked what the problem is when the problem is just WHO I AM, the way that God made me! I am just so damn tired….just really tired….So there’s the real Kitty! Voila!
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June 16th, 2007 at 4:30 pm
I know how you feel Kitty. I’m feeling the same way lately. Hang in there. I love you and so does God.
P.S. So do your kids.
P.P.S. Your site looks GREAT.
June 16th, 2007 at 4:32 pm
Be careful not to color your hair right now!!!
June 17th, 2007 at 5:37 pm
amen! so I just have 3 kiddos but I feel the same way…today is a bad day for me…
June 19th, 2007 at 10:18 am
I’m tired too. I’m tired of being triple teamed by my kids. I’m tired of the fact that I took advice from those parenting articles to “give them choices” which I now do habitually, and it ALWAYS blows up in my face because they don’t agree on 1 choice and now I have to choose someone over the other. I’m tired. But I do have shoulders and ears that are particularly useful for catching those tears you’re holding back and hearing the cries of wondering “why did I have so many kids!?” And I love the 3 theraputic s’s: Starbucks, sun and shopping! Which are all better when you share them! So call me and we’ll duct tape our kids to the basement wall and go somewhere.
June 20th, 2007 at 9:23 am
Oh, Anita, sounds sooooo good. I need a place to let my hair down!! I’m excited to hear that duct tape is allowed here. They didn’t like that idea in California!! And I will take you up on those shoulders and ears!!
June 20th, 2007 at 2:28 pm
Kitty,
So NOT true that being who you are is a problem. You are such a blessing to so many. Tell yourself the truth - YOU ARE WONDERFUL! Speak the truth in love to yourself, like you do to so many others. You may be tired, but you are wonderful and being a mother to four makes one very tired some days (months). I’ve seen a lot of good in you, so see it in yourself and give yourself a break.
Did you know I was a preacher??? I don’t mean to preach, but I hate to see you beat yourself up. I love you!
Debbie