I HATE IT when I don’t have all of “my people” at home under one roof!!!! Rowland left a few minutes ago for Costa Rica. I don’t even know where Costa Rica is on the map. I don’t know what it’s like there. All I know is that it’s far away from here, and I can’t picture it in my mind. All I know is that all of “my people” won’t be together again until after school on Friday, and it sucks!

Why is is that I feel like all is well, and everyone is safe as long as we’re together? I don’t think it has anything to do with trusting God more during those times. I think it has to do with trusting Rowland more during those times. Intellectually, I know that God is in control at all times and that if He desires to take any one of us home at any time, He will. We could all be curled up on the couch together, and one of us move on to Heaven while the rest of us remain on the couch. Truth is that fear is the opposite of trust, and God wants me to trust Him all the time - not just when one of us has left the fold. Unfortunately, I don’t do that so well.

Rowland’s my best friend, and I miss him when he’s gone, but more than that, I just want to know that he’s coming back. I want to be able to picture exactly where he is so that I can feel like he’s safe. I guess it’s time for some “putting my money where my mouth is,” “sucking it up” (thanks, Carrie), and trusting God to protect Rowland and to protect us while we’re apart. After all, He’s in charge, and I’m not! And sometimes I just HATE IT!!!

The Love of My Life!!